I think i am going to crack
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Normal Egg
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| Posted: May 27, 2007 3:14 a.m. - Subject: I think i am going to crack |
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Fuck, as i am writing this shit i am being shouted by mum because i havn’t done enough fucking study, i have done 3 hours of study today! I am on the edge at the moment, i’ll give you the lowdown on my life in the last 4 years.
I moved out of sydney in australia about 4 years ago and into orange, straight way when i got out of the car i knew i was going to hate it.
I cop shit at a shitty private school for being different (being different in this town means wearing anything that isn’t rugby or country related).
I have probably been in over 40 fights in the last 3 years, roughly that. I havn’t lost one yet but i don’t want to, this comes from 3 years of judo, 2 years of Wing chun Kung Fu and a few more.
About a year ago i cracked again and broke a kids nose, got in one heap of shit but claimed bullying and got way with it. I earned various nicknames throughout the years which bugged me, i didn’t mind some of them, but then everyone found out i am into pyrotechnics.
Big deal?
I don’t think so but they sure did so for about 2 1/2 years i have been called terrorist, leb, muslim, and a heap of other ones.
At my school we are forced to do cadets, which i hate as it is, being a semi anarchist. It turned out my entire platoon is racist which fucks everything up even more, in fact about a third of my fights happened in cadets.
On camp i was caught drinking, which earned me a 4 day suspenson.
I am copping shit again and i had a massive fight with my mate on thursday; i ended up elbowing him.
I don’t hang with my old group anymore because of that.
Just to show you how screwed up thing are in my school, i’ll tell you what some of the sadistic fucks like to do.
You know Kangeroos?
They hunt them (which is illeagal already) tie them down and cut off their tails. They call me a pussy because i don’t want to torture shit.
I have a fight tomorrow which should be interesting enough.
thats it.
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Power Egg
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| Posted: May 27, 2007 4:37 a.m. - Subject: |
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Ok, so what are you asking for exactly?
Im not sure i understand?
Secondly, whats "cadets"?? Is that some form of psychical education?
Thirdly, (because of your spelling errors) i couldnt tell if you were trying to say that you’ve been copying other peoples work?
Which is not a smart thing to do and im sure you know that by now.
Neither is drinking on campus.
Thirdly, tell your mother (if its even true at this point which i’m not even sure i believe now) that you DID in fact study and show her your work??
Her bitching might be her way of trying to be involved in your life (as crazy as that might sound) everyones style of parenting is different.
If your really having issues, can you try and catch your mom at a good time and talk to her about all this?
Tell her that your really stressed out and you need to talk to someone?
Or talk to a school counselor about the other kids hunting animals and killing them. I can understand you being scarred by that, thats really scary.
I’m sorry that you had to witness that. Or even hear about it.
Try to take a more rational approach to your problems.
Also when it comes to homework, try just doing on thing at a time.
Dont think about the other stuff, just concentrate on what needs to be done and stick with it until you’ve finished it.
And take brakes every hour or so, so you dont over stress yourself during homework. (its helped alot of kids that ive talked t about the homework stuff)
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| Posted: May 27, 2007 7:25 a.m. - Subject: |
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Quote: i am being shouted by mum because i havn’t done enough fucking study, i have done 3 hours of study today!
yeah but its a saturday. if it was a week day then thats alot, but not today. im expected to do at least 6 hours today, coz i have AS level exams next week. what are you supposed to study for?
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| Posted: May 28, 2007 2:30 a.m. - Subject: |
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cadets is like miltary scouts, but we don’t shoot.
Mum knows how much i study, she still hates my guts.
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| Posted: May 28, 2007 2:31 a.m. - Subject: |
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i know drinking is stupid but it was on camp and it was better than smoking heaps i guess.
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| Posted: May 28, 2007 7:36 p.m. - Subject: |
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Yeah but your old enough to know right from wrong you know?
and getting yourself into trouble all the time doesnt exactly help your case here.
Your life is what you make of it, if you want your life to be shit it will be.
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| Posted: May 29, 2007 11:34 p.m. - Subject: |
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This was sometime last year, and since i havn’t done anything but fight faggots.
I still cop one heap of shit
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| Posted: May 30, 2007 10:36 a.m. - Subject: |
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Oh ok, so i guess what i said earlier some how doesnt apply huh?
If your still trying to "cop" then TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT IT.
Talk to your mom, a school counselor, whatever.
You cant keep it all in though, thats not healthy.
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| Posted: Jun 01, 2007 3:17 a.m. - Subject: |
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yeah i guess, my release is ninjitsu and well fighting.
I do meditate requently though
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| Posted: Jun 14, 2007 9:04 p.m. - Subject: |
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Through school I got called all sorts of names. I got picked like no one else. I’ve lived a fucked up life myself with somethings I am not proud of at all (no regrets though). I coped with it by stuffing it all in and keeping it there. every once in a while I would burst, but I would burst alone away from people (It would give them another thing to bother me about and I’d probably hurt someone). My eventual release of all of it was university. I used it to erase my entire past and start fresh. now I realise this may not be an option for you (perhaps you can’t go away for school, perhaps you don’t want to erase your past). but take every little event in your life as a new beginning and each time try to change something just a bit toward making yourself happy. Once you are happy, those around will follow (something like a smile is contagious?).
All considered, lighten up on life. Don’t let the names get to you. they may call you them constantly, but they are trying to get a rise out of you, trying to tear your insides apart. Just let it roll off your back. If you’re going to fight, my advice is fight for the ’roos. Infact, kick one of those mutherfucker’s who is hurting the kangaroos asses for me. That’s not cool at all. but as for all the other superficial fights, once you learn to let such small things slide, those fights will cease.
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| Posted: Jun 14, 2007 11:25 p.m. - Subject: |
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dude, dont bump topis man, your new so just dont do it.
The names dont bother me, its the random shoves or punchs or vadalising my shit.
As for the ppl who hram the kangeroos, i cant really take on the entire school
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| Posted: Jun 14, 2007 11:27 p.m. - Subject: |
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My keyboard is fucking up
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